A 'wonderful' 13-year-old girl was found hanged in her parents' garden after browsing pro-suicide websites online, an inquest has heard.
Helena Kastner-Moss, who was described as 'incredibly beautiful', passed away two days after she wrote 'I'm dead' in the notes of her phone on January 13, 2024.
The young girl's parents had reported her missing on the night of her death after they returned home from work to find the patio door was open and Helena's school bag was left lying by the sofa.
Police were called to the home in Wiltshire at 7pm and found Helena hanged in the back garden at 8.30pm. She was pronounced dead 20 minutes later.
She did not leave a note or explanation.
A coroner ruled at an inquest held in Salisbury this week that Helena had committed suicide, but said that 'we may never understand why' she intended to end her life, because the only person who could say is 'sadly no longer with us'.
The teenager's parents, David Moss and Martina Kastner, described her this week as a 'very strong' child who loved cats, dogs, climbing trees, running and rollercoasters.
She experienced some bullying, predominantly at primary school, and on one occasion had a boy pull her trousers down. At secondary school, she had been bullied for Trypophobia, a fear of holes.
Helena Kastner-Moss, who was described as 'incredibly beautiful', passed away aged 13 two days after she wrote 'I'm dead' in the notes of her phone on January 13, 2024
The young girl's parents had reported her missing on the night of her death after they returned home from work to find the patio door was open and Helena's school bag was left lying by the sofa (Helena pictured with her father)
Helena's mother said the COVID-19 pandemic had been a particularly difficult period as she found it hard not seeing friends.
'She was bewildered, missing friends the whole period,' Ms Kastner said at the inquest. 'It was hard to get her head around. There was a big kink in her belief in humanity.'
The mother noticed that Helena had begun self-harming in November 2023, when she spotted marks on her arms.
She questioned her daughter about the cuts, but Helena insisted they were merely scratches from a cat.
She told her parents that she thought life was 'pointless' and that she was 'stuck in a loop' but her mother said that 'taking her own life was not in my realm of thinking, I just didn't think it was possible.'
Helena had declined help from mental health professionals or her school when her parents suggested it because 'she didn't want anyone to know this was what she was doing'.
Her friends said she had not spoken to them about her mental health problems and they were not aware that she was self-harming.
Senior Coroner for Wiltshire and Swindon David Ridley said: 'Helena hadn't shared anything with her friend. She was very private.
'Her friend was very disappointed she hadn't shared her struggles with her.'
Helena had a phone from the beginning of secondary school and used social media apps like TikTok, WhatsApp, and Snapchat.
Her parents said that they would take her phone at night to ensure she would sleep properly, as she always had a 'busy mind' since she was young.
On the day that she died, January 15, 2024, Helena was taken to school by her mother, and she had told her to have a good day when she got out of the car.
She was driven home from school by a friend's mother because her parents were holding a musical therapy class.
Her friend described her as 'quieter than usual' and said that she was 'joking on the way but not the same as usual.'
When her parents arrived home, they could not see Helena in the house, and the patio door was left open with her bag lying by the sofa.
After searching the house and looking in the garden multiple times, her parents called the police at 7pm to report that she was missing.
The police later discovered her in the back garden and paramedics attended the scene, but Helena could not be saved.
Searches into Helena's phone revealed that had made searches about suicide and self-harm, Police Constable Ellie Grindrod said.
She wrote 'I'm dead' in her notes app just two days before her death.
Mr Ridley said: 'One of the sites she was looking at is well known to coroners.
'It has been taken off the internet now. It is helped by the Online Safety Act, but it is not foolproof but it is a step in the right direction.'
Mr Ridley said Helena had no mental health medical history and her toxicology report was negative.
He concluded that her death was suicide, saying: 'Helena did intend to end her life. She talked with her parents about her life being in a loop.
'We may never understand why she did this and that for a family must be awful for you all.
'Bringing Helena's inquest to a close, I would like to sincerely, as a parent myself, offer my condolences to her parents, but also to her brothers and sisters and family friends.
'And to anyone else because this has clearly been something that has shaken them to the core.'
Her mother said in a statement at the inquest: 'She had a strength in her, and I thought I had chosen the right name for her.
'Very strong and incredibly beautiful. She was loved by all of her siblings. But she was very sensitive.
'She loved animals, cats, and dogs. They were seemingly attracted to her.
'She loved running, climbing up trees, and she loved rollercoasters like on Blackpool Pleasure Beach.
'She was somebody who made friends very easily.
'She was wonderful and bubbly.'